Reasons Why This Won't Be So Active

Nah not misleading you. As the title implies. I'm writing a few screenplays  (Director's bug aaaarghh) so yeah, most of my time goes there. But don't worry, I'll be here as soon as I can, as much as I can,
So, seemed kinda rude to leave you guys without a piece of me. (100 brownie points to whoever though that wasn't weird)

Titled 'Emotions Betray Me'

Not a day, passes
That I don't forget
Not a night goes by,
This fate in stone 'tis set

I keep walking by,
But my emotions betray me
Keeping it in, smile a little smile,
But my conscience is the enemy

Sometimes I wake up at the middle of a dream
The kind that makes you question reality,
It's hard pulling, won't you help me,
But must not show, oh, my emotions betray me

I don't suffer, from insanity
Rather I enjoy every damn minute
Seeing us fools, dying, loving, f***ing
All for nothing in eternity
So I say,
Demon,
Where did my angel go?
Vanished, vapid, perfect, stupid,
You are the one.

I try to walk by each day
But my emotions betray me 
Talk without a stutter, my love.
But the conscience is the enemy.

Quentin Tarantino is a ---GENIUS
A bad motherf***er from the wallet to the p****

Hiatus

When someone asks me
"What is wrong?"
I simply reply with
"I'm just too tired"
And they agree 
They say to take a nap

But you see
This exhaustion
It is not simply something
Resolved by sleeping.
I cannot simply shut my eyes
And wake up okay

I need a break from my brain
My heart
My life
I need to go away for just a little while
Or maybe forever.

Kill your darlings

JustAnotheRandomGuy

Ranting On Thin Ice #2- I Will Gut You Like A Pig

It’s that time of the year again

I swear to God. By what I have been by, and now which is brought to memory recently by stuff.
F*** with me and I will gut you like a pig

Oh, because for all me f***ing life’s sake I have been nothing but pushed around, humiliated, and treated like a bag of shit that anybody can f***ing step on anytime.
Woah. It’s my bullshit. Kindly remove your shoes from it.

Am I supposed to lie here rotting?

Cause that’s what’s been all this life

Humiliation never stopped coming

You all held me at knife.

-Point.

That’s what I’m trying to make

Try to mess with me again

And you'll lie to waste

Cause I'm not the same anymore, sugar.

And this is my home game

I'm back. Badder. Bigger. Newer.

Someone's gotta pay for all that shame

So this is it.
The night of the hunter.
The day I get revenge.

The night to remember.

The day it'll all just end.

So why don't you come here

Challenge me

You thought I was just a mere

Enemy?

Respect rusts

Anger seeths

Time to burn

Time to defeat 

UUUUUAAAAAARGGGHH

JustAnotheRandomGuy

Mars

I am the spark that en-flames your will
I am the fearless general
And so I must lead with pride and power
For I am the hero whom others shall follow
Unto an epic adventure
To conquer hesitation
To destroy limitation
Suffering humiliation and ridicule, but
All in all for the ascent of my rule
I am that which overcomes
I am sexual desire
I am the unquenchable thirst
I am primal hunger

Fear me
For I am the destruction of innocence
I am the violence embedded in flesh
I am the pain in the bones of the mortal shell
The dark heart of the Earth
I am hell.

Worship me.
I am the fluid
The very liquid
Of your death, of your life
The same stuff of horror flowing down when starteth the strife
Flowing down your veins, a toxin
Of misery, of destruction
Of your desire
Your burning fire
For I am,
Blood.

Unsent Letters

***This post is written for indiblogger's indivine, #UnsentLetters***

Dear X,


Where did you go?
I see people walking around too, with their beaus
But you know,
I want you,
To finally come,
It's been too long a wait,
Too harsh, been downing all my rum
You know you're the only one
But where are you now?
Searching the earth I run
Only to realize you're not around

It gets a little lonely sometimes
Without you here
I kill myself a little each day
Wipe away the tears
My eyes swell up,
I can't help it I'm sorry
I try to mount the stirrup
Thinking of Lochinvar's story
Thing is,
I'd steal you too
From a court, a fort or a terrace
I'm screaming out loud
Hopelessly thinking you'll hear me
And come running to me
But you're not around

We've never met, you know
You're just in my dreams
But I know that you're looking for me
I know that you're searching for me
I think of all the times we could share
But instead I devolve into an empty stare
I'm just a speck of dust in the galaxy
Useless to find, worthless to keep
X, I've missed you long
But instead you do not come, and I sing this song

JustAnotheRandomGuy

Hopeless Search

Looking for you

Your breath,

It blows me away and your

Smile,

It makes me do the same,

Your eyes,

They twinkle like the rain but,

Your being,

It makes me shudder in pain,

You’re real enough for the angst,

But not enough for the rest

You’re everything,

That I’d be searching for

Writing a love song for nobody out there

Searching for you, I’ve been everywhere

To stay in your arms, To touch your hair,

It's a dream, sometimes a nightmare

When I realise,

You were

Never true, never true,

You’ll always be surreal

And I’ll always be a fool

Screaming out,

Hoping you’ll turn back

Making my skull crack, skull crack

Not realizing you’re nowhere

But still,

I’m looking for you, everywhere

I bu-u-u-u-urn the water,

Freeze the flames,

Hoping my search doesn’t falter,

Conflicting endless shames

Are you there in the crowd?

And I’m moving to fast?

Cause I’ll slow down.

Writing a love song for nobody out there

Searching for you, I’ve been everywhere

To stay in your arms, To touch your hair,

It's a dream, sometimes a nightmare

When I realize,

You were

Never true, never true,

You’ll always be surreal

And I’ll always be a fool

Screaming out,

Hoping you’ll turn around

Not realizing you’re nowhere 

To be found

But still,

I’m looking for you, everywhere

I set FIIIIIIRE TO THE GODDAMN RAIN!

JustAnotheRandomGuy 

Nihilist Feelings After A Long Weekend/ Memoirs of The Lonely Poet

I’ll Be Alright

Verse 1

I’ll be alright

Why do you even care?

The darkness fended by a light

But to extinguish it you dared

Time spent was time enough

Never knew the truth would hit you so rough

It was ‘bout time to get tough

But somehow the truth gave you a cough

I gave it all I had

So don’t try to console me

Should’ve stopped it then

Ending’s now to be

Chorus

Now I don’t know

What you want with me

It’s alright for you to go

But just leave me be

Just forget it now

And leave quietly

Seeds of angst you plow

But weeding ‘s not to be

I’ll be alright

Why do you even care?

I’m trying with all my might

But still pulling out my hair

Verse 2

It’s not over it’s done

Don’t tell me it was fun

I’m just

Finished

With the way that we were

The memory’s

Diminished

You’re not her

Cupid’s demanding back his arrow

Love’s lost even he knows

Chorus

Now I don’t know

What you want with me

It’s alright for you to go

But just leave me be

Just forget it now

And leave quietly

Seeds of angst you plow

But weeding ‘s not to be

I’ll be alright

Why do you even care?

I’m trying with all my might

But still pulling out my hair

Verse 3

I was lost in the night

And I found you

A beacon in dark, I

Never knew

Of your poisoned

Lust for my life

Gotta end this strife

Good thing I shunned

This unholy union of

Us.

If this is how it ends

It is how it must be

Sing me a song of melancholy

Chorus

Now I don’t know

What you want with me

It’s alright for you to go

But just leave me be

Just forget it now

And leave quietly

Seeds of angst you plow

But weeding ‘s not to be

I’ll be alright

Why do you even care?

I’m trying with all my might

But still pulling out my hair


Sorry. Something called exams happened. That and a whole lot of other stuff.

Cheers, I can't think of anything

JustAnotheRandomGuy