Stop.

 Well, won't be active much, as I said, cause I really can't find much to wite on. I mean, what use writing when you don't really have much to write on?

On the other hand, I need to address something. Recently I had realized, people often don't mean what they say. You know what? I'm fine with that. It was a very personal thing, yes, but why lie? Good lord, don't. No.

Blows to its dignity this heart can take.

But lies this soul will not stand.

So, please again, do not say things you do not mean. I don't need pity, or false apologies.

Stop. Think.

I can't take it. I won't take it.

And to my friends, virtual or real. I'd advise you to stay away for a while. I'm not the guy you know so well.

"Do not fight with monsters, lest ye become a monster yerself.

And when you gaze into the abyss, the abyss also gazes into you"(Friedrich Nietzche)

Words cut deeper than swords.

Scars they inflict, are on the heart, not our skin

The kind of scars that remind you the past is real

JustAnotheRandomGuy

 

Reasons Why This Won't Be So Active

Nah not misleading you. As the title implies. I'm writing a few screenplays  (Director's bug aaaarghh) so yeah, most of my time goes there. But don't worry, I'll be here as soon as I can, as much as I can,
So, seemed kinda rude to leave you guys without a piece of me. (100 brownie points to whoever though that wasn't weird)

Titled 'Emotions Betray Me'

Not a day, passes
That I don't forget
Not a night goes by,
This fate in stone 'tis set

I keep walking by,
But my emotions betray me
Keeping it in, smile a little smile,
But my conscience is the enemy

Sometimes I wake up at the middle of a dream
The kind that makes you question reality,
It's hard pulling, won't you help me,
But must not show, oh, my emotions betray me

I don't suffer, from insanity
Rather I enjoy every damn minute
Seeing us fools, dying, loving, f***ing
All for nothing in eternity
So I say,
Demon,
Where did my angel go?
Vanished, vapid, perfect, stupid,
You are the one.

I try to walk by each day
But my emotions betray me 
Talk without a stutter, my love.
But the conscience is the enemy.

Quentin Tarantino is a ---GENIUS
A bad motherf***er from the wallet to the p****

Hiatus

When someone asks me
"What is wrong?"
I simply reply with
"I'm just too tired"
And they agree 
They say to take a nap

But you see
This exhaustion
It is not simply something
Resolved by sleeping.
I cannot simply shut my eyes
And wake up okay

I need a break from my brain
My heart
My life
I need to go away for just a little while
Or maybe forever.

Kill your darlings

JustAnotheRandomGuy

Ranting On Thin Ice #2- I Will Gut You Like A Pig

It’s that time of the year again

I swear to God. By what I have been by, and now which is brought to memory recently by stuff.
F*** with me and I will gut you like a pig

Oh, because for all me f***ing life’s sake I have been nothing but pushed around, humiliated, and treated like a bag of shit that anybody can f***ing step on anytime.
Woah. It’s my bullshit. Kindly remove your shoes from it.

Am I supposed to lie here rotting?

Cause that’s what’s been all this life

Humiliation never stopped coming

You all held me at knife.

-Point.

That’s what I’m trying to make

Try to mess with me again

And you'll lie to waste

Cause I'm not the same anymore, sugar.

And this is my home game

I'm back. Badder. Bigger. Newer.

Someone's gotta pay for all that shame

So this is it.
The night of the hunter.
The day I get revenge.

The night to remember.

The day it'll all just end.

So why don't you come here

Challenge me

You thought I was just a mere

Enemy?

Respect rusts

Anger seeths

Time to burn

Time to defeat 

UUUUUAAAAAARGGGHH

JustAnotheRandomGuy

Mars

I am the spark that en-flames your will
I am the fearless general
And so I must lead with pride and power
For I am the hero whom others shall follow
Unto an epic adventure
To conquer hesitation
To destroy limitation
Suffering humiliation and ridicule, but
All in all for the ascent of my rule
I am that which overcomes
I am sexual desire
I am the unquenchable thirst
I am primal hunger

Fear me
For I am the destruction of innocence
I am the violence embedded in flesh
I am the pain in the bones of the mortal shell
The dark heart of the Earth
I am hell.

Worship me.
I am the fluid
The very liquid
Of your death, of your life
The same stuff of horror flowing down when starteth the strife
Flowing down your veins, a toxin
Of misery, of destruction
Of your desire
Your burning fire
For I am,
Blood.

Unsent Letters

***This post is written for indiblogger's indivine, #UnsentLetters***

Dear X,


Where did you go?
I see people walking around too, with their beaus
But you know,
I want you,
To finally come,
It's been too long a wait,
Too harsh, been downing all my rum
You know you're the only one
But where are you now?
Searching the earth I run
Only to realize you're not around

It gets a little lonely sometimes
Without you here
I kill myself a little each day
Wipe away the tears
My eyes swell up,
I can't help it I'm sorry
I try to mount the stirrup
Thinking of Lochinvar's story
Thing is,
I'd steal you too
From a court, a fort or a terrace
I'm screaming out loud
Hopelessly thinking you'll hear me
And come running to me
But you're not around

We've never met, you know
You're just in my dreams
But I know that you're looking for me
I know that you're searching for me
I think of all the times we could share
But instead I devolve into an empty stare
I'm just a speck of dust in the galaxy
Useless to find, worthless to keep
X, I've missed you long
But instead you do not come, and I sing this song

JustAnotheRandomGuy

Hopeless Search

Looking for you

Your breath,

It blows me away and your

Smile,

It makes me do the same,

Your eyes,

They twinkle like the rain but,

Your being,

It makes me shudder in pain,

You’re real enough for the angst,

But not enough for the rest

You’re everything,

That I’d be searching for

Writing a love song for nobody out there

Searching for you, I’ve been everywhere

To stay in your arms, To touch your hair,

It's a dream, sometimes a nightmare

When I realise,

You were

Never true, never true,

You’ll always be surreal

And I’ll always be a fool

Screaming out,

Hoping you’ll turn back

Making my skull crack, skull crack

Not realizing you’re nowhere

But still,

I’m looking for you, everywhere

I bu-u-u-u-urn the water,

Freeze the flames,

Hoping my search doesn’t falter,

Conflicting endless shames

Are you there in the crowd?

And I’m moving to fast?

Cause I’ll slow down.

Writing a love song for nobody out there

Searching for you, I’ve been everywhere

To stay in your arms, To touch your hair,

It's a dream, sometimes a nightmare

When I realize,

You were

Never true, never true,

You’ll always be surreal

And I’ll always be a fool

Screaming out,

Hoping you’ll turn around

Not realizing you’re nowhere 

To be found

But still,

I’m looking for you, everywhere

I set FIIIIIIRE TO THE GODDAMN RAIN!

JustAnotheRandomGuy