Hopeless Search

Looking for you

Your breath,

It blows me away and your

Smile,

It makes me do the same,

Your eyes,

They twinkle like the rain but,

Your being,

It makes me shudder in pain,

You’re real enough for the angst,

But not enough for the rest

You’re everything,

That I’d be searching for

Writing a love song for nobody out there

Searching for you, I’ve been everywhere

To stay in your arms, To touch your hair,

It's a dream, sometimes a nightmare

When I realise,

You were

Never true, never true,

You’ll always be surreal

And I’ll always be a fool

Screaming out,

Hoping you’ll turn back

Making my skull crack, skull crack

Not realizing you’re nowhere

But still,

I’m looking for you, everywhere

I bu-u-u-u-urn the water,

Freeze the flames,

Hoping my search doesn’t falter,

Conflicting endless shames

Are you there in the crowd?

And I’m moving to fast?

Cause I’ll slow down.

Writing a love song for nobody out there

Searching for you, I’ve been everywhere

To stay in your arms, To touch your hair,

It's a dream, sometimes a nightmare

When I realize,

You were

Never true, never true,

You’ll always be surreal

And I’ll always be a fool

Screaming out,

Hoping you’ll turn around

Not realizing you’re nowhere 

To be found

But still,

I’m looking for you, everywhere

I set FIIIIIIRE TO THE GODDAMN RAIN!

JustAnotheRandomGuy 

Nihilist Feelings After A Long Weekend/ Memoirs of The Lonely Poet

I’ll Be Alright

Verse 1

I’ll be alright

Why do you even care?

The darkness fended by a light

But to extinguish it you dared

Time spent was time enough

Never knew the truth would hit you so rough

It was ‘bout time to get tough

But somehow the truth gave you a cough

I gave it all I had

So don’t try to console me

Should’ve stopped it then

Ending’s now to be

Chorus

Now I don’t know

What you want with me

It’s alright for you to go

But just leave me be

Just forget it now

And leave quietly

Seeds of angst you plow

But weeding ‘s not to be

I’ll be alright

Why do you even care?

I’m trying with all my might

But still pulling out my hair

Verse 2

It’s not over it’s done

Don’t tell me it was fun

I’m just

Finished

With the way that we were

The memory’s

Diminished

You’re not her

Cupid’s demanding back his arrow

Love’s lost even he knows

Chorus

Now I don’t know

What you want with me

It’s alright for you to go

But just leave me be

Just forget it now

And leave quietly

Seeds of angst you plow

But weeding ‘s not to be

I’ll be alright

Why do you even care?

I’m trying with all my might

But still pulling out my hair

Verse 3

I was lost in the night

And I found you

A beacon in dark, I

Never knew

Of your poisoned

Lust for my life

Gotta end this strife

Good thing I shunned

This unholy union of

Us.

If this is how it ends

It is how it must be

Sing me a song of melancholy

Chorus

Now I don’t know

What you want with me

It’s alright for you to go

But just leave me be

Just forget it now

And leave quietly

Seeds of angst you plow

But weeding ‘s not to be

I’ll be alright

Why do you even care?

I’m trying with all my might

But still pulling out my hair


Sorry. Something called exams happened. That and a whole lot of other stuff.

Cheers, I can't think of anything

JustAnotheRandomGuy 

Denial

Why do we strive,
For what may never be ours?
Live our lifetime in denial,
Falsely pass away the hours

We dream and think
Of a thousand it-could-be's
But never come to grip
With the reality

We're fools, and great ones at that
To think of what is as distant as Mars
So go on, wear your hat
Hide the sorrow, away you cower

She walks in beauty, we say
Of cloudless climes and starry skies
But dashed be that hope's ray
Failure we must see through our own eyes

I've been in the alley, long and dark,
Looking for my answer.
My truth was quite stark
Still I journey down the river

Humans are flawed creatures
Angels more even so
Is it the mindset, is it the culture,
That refuses to take the answer for no?

We love, we die
In the quest of that unattainable
We hate we cry
Even though we were never capable

It is my destiny
I can't forget that something shiny
There was a maiden fair
But why shall she dance with the bear?

When you realized it never really was possible
When acceptance is no longer a choice
Do you swallow the truth, or nibble?
With blood do your eyes moist?

We've all been through this 
Expected something, accepted another
But in the end my brain does hiss
At the peculiar human nature
 But do you know
I'd rather live in denial
Than silently crow
Over my cause being left in a file

That was some deep shit right there

JustAnotheRandomGuy  

 
 

Rhyme Battles

Apparently during the worst of times I find it good to rhyme along with people.
Blog posts not so frequent 'cause exams

(Trebuchet- me, Bold, Akshaye)

Nothing really matters to me
I have seen my destiny
Not in the world not in my mind I am free
To all my enemies and friends I'm sorry
Into the world of death
Carry me
I drive you last into my lorry's
You do
And you see
The cow goes moo
And blue is the sea
This world is bland
Kinda useless
So is the food
I am but the hand
Of my mood


I taste the sea
In my pee
It feels like me
Tasted my sanity
It has rotted, it has died
The people the god all had lied
The mothers they cried
On death's chariot I ride
No place to hide
So I went
Yeah I went
Into the palace he dearly called his
A place of horror was this
But my life I will miss
Even if it was filled with piss
It had been long since I could feel even a kiss
So I told him to stop
And we stared
A little nervous, a little scared
There he stood behind his lair
Neigh said his mare
And my, he had no hair
That was the real scare
Blue eyes blue hat and brown skin
And with that physics defying grin
He lifted that bottle of gin
And threw it into a bin
"Tonight
We dine in hell"
Said that measly skel
Dine upon the droids that fell
The feast was grand but it felt mel
Goddarnit I said to my Dell
It hanged again like the King's Head
"Another Day"
"Another day  it wails
Oh the heavens oh the skies
In both the kingdoms the angel cries

This was a mistake

JustAnotheRandomGuy

 
 
 



  

The Hangar Messiah - #1 "Ranting On Thin Ice"

I'm annoyed on the topic of annoyance.
Ok, say everybody made a plan. You told 'em, no, the Daitya can't do it. The whole group somehow does it. But, little do you know, half of them actually made plans of their own to NOT do that.
 (Keep in mind- the act was something we could get punished for: No, the Daitya wasn't a coward but he knows what is possible and what is not)
So the other half completely forgets that I WAS THE GODDARN ONE WHO TRIED TO HELP THEM!
Guess what. The daitya got the BS end of it.
You're ready to do stuff. You say, alright, we can do this.
You're ready to help. But they don't want it. They "Don't fucking see it coming"
Alright. Alright. But don't fucking crap on your ready-to-be-saviour. (A Hangar Messiah, if you must)
Oh, but even if I did come, would you eat my soul out? Drink my blood and eat my flesh? (Sorry, for the offended religious people, but I had to do it)
Guess people don't fucking see it coming

I was there for you
But you turned your back
On an invitation
To your saving rack

You didn't heed thy warning
You went on ahead
But when it's time to get the scorning
Instead of the guilty, my name is said

I guess I'm ranting on thin ice
I guess the fault is really mine 
But now, I don't need to be nice
Don't care if we leave here dyin'

 A new bi-monthly series- Ranting On Thin Ice

JustAnotheRandomGuy

 

Crawl

Have you ever crawled,
Been on your knees?
Has your soul been mauled
Or just that you're heartless
To not listen to these pleas?

Have you ever felt helpless
Fell into the abyss
But got out you did nonetheless
All on your own

The abyss was lovely, dark and deep
And to it the promises you did keep
And it's profits you did reap
And into the madness you did creep
And lead the others unto it like sheep?

You can't help but cry
At all they did to you
But when the times comes to avenge
To find yourself not willing to

You're the Catcher in the Rye
You're the Greater Gatsby
You're the Silencer of the Lambs
And the shadow archetype
You've lived long, waited, long, resented long
Now you act
But you can't

You awoke like Lazarus, falling apart but ready to come back
You had beaten and broken until you had a crack
Yet at the end of it all
You didn't fall

You thought up a thousand different scenarios to beat them.
But every time, you fail to.

Hiatus for a month, bye

JustAnotheRandomGuy

It's A Little Funny

It's a little funny
How
Nobody ever asked how you did
But always expected the same in return
A little sad too
When that expectation turns to burn

It's not like I even was
Part of the machinery
Just a third wheel
A tasteless topping, a rotten cherry

Am I being antagonistic of myself?
Perhaps I'm not that bad
But when you fade from everyone's memory
You can't help but be sad

I don't even know
If they notice me anymore
A walking shadow
A soundless phantom

 Tell me now
At least then I won't be fooled by deceptions
Reap and sow
No exceptions

Am I that bad?
That I am not worth caring for?
To be left in the tomb to rot and rot
For whom does the bell toll?
For whom does the choir sing?
For whom do the wolves call?

 For whom does the bell toll?
The name called out is quite foreign
Perhaps cause' I never heard it called out before

For whom does the choir sing?
Melodies never belonged to me
Sing me a song of melancholy

For whom do the wolves call?
I always felt more like one of them
The woods never bothered me anyway

So, 
Will you miss me when I'm gone?
Or will you leave me to be
An accidental friend, a blip in memory
A wrinkle in time, a sad stain
On the fabric of history
Will you miss me when I'm gone?
Or will you let me be?
Singing a song of
Endless melancholy

It is unknown where I gathered such negativity. 

Nevertheless, it must be spread

JustAnotheRandomGuy